TN Gnawali

I'm thinking about why it is necessary to have faith on something . Cant we live with facts ? The answer is No . But why ? I'm not able to understand why do we have faith on our future , that our future would be good . But why ? Why to even consider future in the first place. Do we see future ? Its obvious Nehh . Then why to have faith on future self . Why ...Why...why ..

Who knows who the hell we become in future , may be we'll end up being a bad example for ourselves but probably we wont be. But who know what situation would come up and we end up giving up it early ..

Lets cut it out . I was reading some lines from buddha , he was answering a question .

Question : What is ego ?

Buddha : The ego is your past ,where you hold on to .

The ego is future which you want to hold on to .

Question : Why do we have ego ?

Buddha : We have ego because we've forgotten how we evolved . We have gone through evolution bcoz of the love and care for each others , otherwise we would have ended up dying like a dog . You may be wondering we killed others as well in the process. Yes thats completely true ,we killed our enemy back then but the agenda was to protect our sides.

I was always mesmerized by how buddha explains his point in a beautiful way so that i understand what's going on with this life .

He said , there's always pain . Yes i heard it right , there's always pain in anyone's life . It might be bcoz of miserable life or lavish lifestyle . We all have pain .

He adds , every pain has its medicine hidden inside of it ,yes thats true too. Every pain has its medicine and thats what we call healing .We all have supernatural ability to heal any pain .When we start living at the moment the power of healing starts to show its profound impact on our well being . I have felt this in my life many a times.

When I finished the first book "Power of Now" , I started applying each of the principles written on the book . From breathing slowly to thinking positive side about bad things happening, every part was difficult for few days . But lately they became part of my thinking process.

There was a TED Talk " Change your breath and change your life " . Which also emphasized on breathing slowly , the speaker also demontrated how navy seals breath to keep calm in harsh situation .

Yeah these things always get me .

When we dont see anything working right away , we must have faith that it works someday ..

Its like going to gym and next day looking at mirror and saying i got my muscles back ,thats just a hope and will eventually become the reality .

Yest thats a faith , which works well patiently..

उज्यालोको मार्गदर्शक, मायाको चिराग हो,

विनम्रताको भाषा, मिठासको स्वागत हो।

सज्जनताको परिचय यही, मनको गहिराइ हो,

हिमालजस्तो ठूलो मन, समुद्रजस्तो धैर्य हो।

हात समात्दै साथ दिने, अग्रसर हरेक पल,

विनम्रताको शीतल छाया, अहंकार नै भुल।

सुखदुखको साथी बनेर, निभाउने वचन हो,

सज्जनको शक्ति यही, मानवताको नचन हो।

सम्मानको भाषा बोली, छुट्याउन सबै भेद,

छोडी दिँदै अग्रपंक्ति, गुमानको यो खेल।

कमजोरको आवाज बने , न्यायको पथमा टिक,

साहस र सत्यको साथमा, अडान बनी अटिक।

चाँदनी रातैमा जस्तो, शान्तिको साथ दिने,

आँधीमा पनि अटल रही, आशाको बीज रोप्ने।

सज्जनको मुस्कानले, मिटोस् अन्यायको चोख,

मानवताको यो धर्तीमा, फैलोस् प्रेमको ओख।

त्यसैले हो सज्जन भन्नु, जीवनको सार हो,

माया, सम्मान, सत्यको यो अनुपम उपहार हो।

युगौंसम्म याद गरिने, यस्तो मानव धन हो,

सज्जनताको मर्म नै, मानवताको गुण हो।

भावार्थ:

यसमा सज्जनतालाई मानवताको प्रतिबिम्बको रूपमा चित्रण गरिएको छ। विनम्रता, सहयोग, न्याय, साहस, र सम्मानजस्ता गुणहरू मार्फत सज्जन व्यक्तिको व्यक्तित्वलाई प्रकाशित गर्न खोजिएको छ।

We are having STEAM EXHIBITION tomorrow on the occasion of Saraswati Pooja at Valleyview School. We've prepared around 46 projects for mathematics department. All the projects were done by students themselves , we only had given them some ideas to work upon .

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Today I re-started journaling on my phone and I'm happy about this beginning . I always wanted to write daily journal so that i could keep up with my daily activities and i could reflect upon this .

Three things I am grateful is :
1. I was fresh this morning and felt a joyful energy blow .
2. Today was a well spent day .
3. I bought new modi coat and that suits me best .

I wanted to edit my website and set up it properly with a beautiful theme . I couldn't do it properly .
When i was having my cup of tea this morning two 💡 ideas came up in my mind ,
1. Learn knitting
2. Start a YouTube channel with name " Quest of life " .

I slept whole afternoon 😴 . And met puja vanji in the evening . Kreepa and I went to buy half pants but we couldn't purchase any bcoz of the high price tag .
By the way I did exercise and meditated for approx 20 minutes . I was reciting " Om san sanaischaray namah " .

It was kind of good day for me . The idea 💡 of keeping consistency with journaling was recommended by Dristi sharma ,a popular youtuber . I watched two videos of her on productivity , these two videos were worth watching .

Finally Its almost 10 pm , I wanna say thank to the God who always stood by my side through my bad days to good one. I am always seeking for the opportunity to grow and enjoy my life. Only one thing always bugs me out , I'll talk about that in coming days . I hope I'll keep consistency with this journaling ..

I love myself , I love myself , I'll always love myself . 😇

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My love is not the fleeting kind,

Like whispered winds that fade with time.

It lingers deep, a steady glow,

A river’s course, a mountain’s snow.

It speaks in hush, in silent ways,

In stolen glances, in warm embrace.

No gilded words, no grand display,

Yet in my heart, it softly stays.

Through storm and sun, through dark and light,

Through endless days and restless nights,

Unshaken, true, it holds its place,

A timeless song, a boundless grace.

My love is strong, yet light as air,

It needs no proof, no world to share.

For in your eyes, I see it shine,

A love eternal—yours and mine.

The night is deep, the world is still,

Yet something stirs—a quiet thrill.

The stars above in silent spin,

And in the dark, I begin.

No sunlit path, no guiding ray,

Just moonlight painting dreams in gray.

Yet step by step, through hush so thin,

With steady heart, I begin.

The echoes past may call my name,

Their whispers soft, their fears the same.

But shadows fade, they cannot win—

For in their midst, I begin.

A sigh, a thought, a spark unseen,

A hope that glows where none has been.

Though midnight wraps the world within,

With fearless soul, and I begin.

Its been more than a year with you my brothers and sisters . You have always been amazing friends , motivation and my inspiration. I have learnt so many things from you all. I'll miss every moment we laughed together .

त्यो ठूलो आवाज, त्यो हल्ला सबै याद आउनेछ । खड्काको who says गित , Ashmita Thakuri को तीखो स्वर सबै मनमा मीठो गित झै बसेका छन । Daud को BeatBoxing , Powel out हुदा पनि I was not ready भन्ने बानी , Arjal को ऐले भेट्लास है भाइ भन्ने सुन्न पनि कान तरस्सिने छन। Arushi को त्यो भटाभट लेखाइ Dipshika को बोलाइ भन्दा नि कुद्छ। घाँटी छुद फु फु गर्ने kanchan , Assembly मा photo वाला pose दिने Dipisha .....(सबैको बारेमा लेख्नेछु)

After I got myself involved into spiritual practices , I left no stone unturned to read the books that i used to found along my journey. When I watched a discourse of osho on the quantum realm of the universe , i loved the way he projected the dharma and science together in order to elaborate the facts . Although it was difficult for me to decide whether to believe his words or not but time flies and so man's tendency to percive .

There is one story about him , it is said that he had read around 10 million books in his 50 yrs . I wonder how a man from a village can have this much of source of information to talk on any topic . I add swami vivekananda for the reference , yes its possible to achieve such kind of divine power . Here I admit that I barely believe such kind of power so I call it the divine power .

In Hinduism, Lord Shiva is one of the most revered deities and is considered to be the destroyer and transformer of the universe. He is often depicted with matted hair, a third eye, and a serpent around his neck, and is associated with power, purity, and detachment. But who is Lord Shiva, and who are the members of his family? In this blog post, we will explore the mythology surrounding Lord Shiva and his family, and their significance in Hinduism.

Lord Shiva, also known as Mahadeva, is considered to be one of the three main gods in Hinduism, along with Brahma and Vishnu. He is the god of destruction, and is often depicted as a powerful and ascetic figure who lives a life of solitude in the mountains. Despite his association with destruction, Lord Shiva is also considered to be a compassionate and benevolent deity who bestows blessings upon his devotees.

Lord Shiva is married to the goddess Parvati, who is also known as Uma, Gauri, and Durga. Parvati is the goddess of love, fertility, and devotion, and is considered to be the gentler aspect of the divine feminine. Together, Lord Shiva and Parvati have two sons, Ganesha and Kartikeya, who are both worshipped as gods in their own right.

Ganesha, the elephant-headed god, is the god of wisdom and is considered to be the remover of obstacles. He is often depicted as a plump and jovial figure, and is one of the most widely worshipped gods in Hinduism. Kartikeya, also known as Skanda, is the god of war and is associated with bravery and strength. He is depicted as a handsome and powerful young warrior, and is worshipped mainly in South India.

In addition to his wife and sons, Lord Shiva is also accompanied by his faithful servant and companion, the bull Nandi. Nandi is considered to be the vehicle of Lord Shiva, and is worshipped as the gatekeeper of Lord Shiva's abode.

In conclusion, Lord Shiva and his family form an important part of Hindu mythology, and their stories and symbolism continue to influence Hindu beliefs and practices to this day. From the power and detachment of Lord Shiva, to the love and devotion of Parvati, to the wisdom of Ganesha and the bravery of Kartikeya, each member of this divine family represents a different aspect of the divine and continues to be worshipped and revered by millions of Hindus worldwide.

In the world of psychology and personal growth, two terms that often come up are "ego" and "awareness." While these terms are closely related, they refer to very different things and can have a significant impact on our lives. In this blog post, we will explore the key differences between ego and awareness, and how they can impact our thoughts, feelings, and actions.

Ego refers to the part of our personality that is focused on our own self-interest and image. It is the voice in our head that constantly judges and evaluates our experiences, seeking to maintain a sense of control and security. The ego is often driven by fear, insecurity, and a need for validation from others. This can lead to negative self-talk, self-doubt, and a distorted view of reality.

Awareness, on the other hand, refers to the state of being present in the moment and noticing what is happening around us without judgment. It involves recognizing our thoughts, feelings, and physical sensations without getting caught up in them. Awareness allows us to see things as they are, rather than through the lens of our ego's biases and interpretations. This can lead to greater clarity, peace, and a deeper understanding of ourselves and the world around us.

So, why is it important to understand the difference between ego and awareness? When our ego is in control, we may find ourselves constantly seeking external validation and engaging in self-defeating behaviors. This can lead to feelings of emptiness, anxiety, and depression. On the other hand, when we cultivate awareness, we can gain greater insight into our thoughts and emotions, allowing us to make better decisions and lead a more fulfilling life.

In conclusion, ego and awareness are two key aspects of our personality that can have a profound impact on our lives. By understanding the difference between the two, we can work to cultivate awareness and let go of our ego-driven tendencies, leading to a more fulfilling and satisfying life.

Dear Myself,

Today was a good day. I had a break from tutoring which was much needed. I had some fun with my students, which always puts a smile on my face. I started my day with a refreshing bath in the morning, which was just what I needed to get ready for the day ahead.

In the evening, I had a chatpatey with my roommates. It was great to catch up with them and share some laughs. We also had coffee together, which was a nice break from our busy schedules.

After the chatpatey, I decided to do something productive and read a book on the 7 spiritual laws of yoga. It was a fascinating read and I learned a lot about the connection between our bodies and our minds. I am looking forward to incorporating what I learned into my daily routine.

Overall, it was a great day and I am feeling grateful for all the good things in my life.

Dec 14, Boston School , Kalopul

When you want to lucid dream, you must train yourself to question reality in your wakeful state. The cliche is to try switching lightswitches. If the lights turn on and off, you know you are awake. If the light does not turn on and off, you know that you are probably in a dream, and you can use another test to confirm.

In order to change your behaviour and assumptions in a dream, you must do so in reality.I have found so much success in hacking my dreams during waking life. Whenever I see imagery or anything which arouses me in a movie or otherwise, I don't allow the temptation to even present. I look away or I cover it with my hand. This is because, as much as I feel I can overcome it, I often find my eyes are drawn there, and I have to resist the temptation. In a dream, if the imagery magics itself into a scenario I can interact with, that temptation will always lead me to indulge. But, if I refuse it to even enter my consciousness, then it becomes an impossibility.

The only way to beat bad dreams is to hack your psychology through movement. There is no special meditation or spritual method to overcome the 2nd strongest biological force on the planet (closely after the will to survive). The only way you can beat your surrender to this force is to cut the chain to relapse at the first link. The only way to beat your behaviour and physical actions in your dreams is through changing your behaviour and physical actions in your waking life.

A dream is not a thought, it is not a concept, it is not a simulation. When you act in a dream, you use the same part of the brain as that which directly controls motor functions in your body in real life. The only difference is that there is an internal mechanism which blocks cerebral movement impulses during dreams from reaching your muscles. Otherwise, those cerebral events are exactly the same. For example, sleepwalking is a condition where that inhibiting mechanism fails, and the person's body acts the same behaviour as their dreams.

Lastly ,

Changing your thoughts will not change your dreams. That's impossible. You can try to change your dreams, but you will never truly defeat your subconscious. The only way to change your actions in your dreams is to change your actions in the real world.

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Dec 14,Boston School, Kalopul

The summary of the book is composed in 34 pages , each topic is covered in around 2 pages . Its an easy read , arranged in such a way to engage the reader . Today I'm gonna write what I got from the book on day two of my reading,

Spartan Minimalism

Having a cold shower requires no discipline for he who has no hot water system. Eating healthy requires no discipline for he who has no junk food in the kitchen. Being frugal requires no discipline for he who has no

money.

One of the foundations upon which the discipline of the Spartans rest is their philosophy of simplicity over decoration and precision over expansiveness. The Spartan’s achieved discipline not through the exertion

of willpower but through the development of laser-like focus.

Imagine how much you could achieve if you approached your life with this kind of Spartan minimalism. If you eliminated all but that which propels you toward your goals. One thing’s for sure: You’d be a heck of a lot closer to your goal than you currently are, if not already successful.

In a nutshell:

Simplicity breeds success. Keeping things minimal in nonessential areas of life makes room for massive achievement in the areas of life that you have decided are most important.

Dec 12, Kalopul,Kathmandu

I never wrote about you .It doesn't mean i never thought about writing . I couldn't find the words to describe you . You are the one for I shine , I cherish , I fight . Everything has its meaning and value but you are more than that my precious love . I dont speak much on love but it's inside my head buzzing every moment . Your smile keeps me awake , your presence make me complete .

The one with whom I'm me

, only you .

Light lit up ,and day comes out ,

I shine with you

Bigger the dream I have ,

Everywhere I have you.

Love you my Joon ❤❤❤

Dec 12, Kalopul,Kathmandu.

Today I have started reading the book Spartan Discipline: By Dominic Mann , It's a book about How to develop Spartan Discipline, Unbreakable Mental Toughness, and Relentless Willpower.

While reading first few paragraphs of the book , I started getting a vibe of how we have been living in misery . Some of the listed quotes are so catchy , every words give a tight slap to the conservative thinking . The narration and explainations given in the book is well organized and relatable .Each lines are completing the lacks I have in life due to over assumption and lack of willpower.

Some of the quotes from the book I love to share:

"No man is free ,who cannot command himself" - Pythagoras

"Through Discipline comes freedom"-Aristotle

This was all about introduction from the book , next I'm gonna read The Spartan Minimalism. I Will be sharing here soon .

हो !!

थाहा छ मलाइ , म बिना मर्छु भनेर धम्की पनि दिन्थेउ , हो येहि सोच बदल्न कति कोसिस गरे तर कैलै सम्झेनौ । तर आज्कल तिमी अक्सिजन बिना पो मान्छे मर्छ , मान्छे बिना किन मर्ने भन्ने तर्क दिन थालेछौ । कति खुशी लाग्छ मलाइ तिमी मा आएको यी परिवर्तन देख्न पाउदा । तर किन किन यी सब तिम्रा देखावटी आवरण हुन जस्तो लाग्छ । तिमी सोच बद्लेर एक स्वतन्त्र नारी भएर अगाडि बढेको हेर्न चाहेको छु । nibba nibbi जस्तो माया प्रेममा हराएको हेर्न होइन ।

थाहा छ मलाइ , तिमी भन्छौ 'तँ भन्दा कैयौं राम्रा केटा पाएर देखाउछु ।' । अरे तिम्रो छवि यदि कोहि अर्को केटो आयेर उच्छ हुन्छ भने तिमी सधै एक मूर्ख नै रहनेछौ । आफू राम्रो बन , हुन त म तिमिलाइ सल्लाह दिने लायक नहुला । तर जे भोगेर बुझेको छु तेस्ले के भन्छ भने " अरुलाइ देखाउन गरिएको परिश्रमले कैलै पनि सफल बनाउदैन । जब आफुलाइ निखार्न परिश्रम गरिन्छ तब मात्र सफलता को मज्जा लिन सकिन्छ । "

मलाइ थाहा छ , नारी को सम्मान गर्न तिम्ले केही हद् सम्म सिकाएको छौ । आज पनि म तेहि मार्ग मा छु , र म एक्दम सुकुन महशुस पनि गर्छु । निशा लाई गरेको गाली आज पनि याद छ , तेसैमा तिम्ले मलाई दिएको सुझाव पनि मनन छ । तर तिम्ले दिएको ज्ञान ले तिम्रो मम्मी लाई गालिगर्न बाट रोकेन । तिमिलाइ अपशब्द प्रयोग गर्न बाट रोकेन । पश्चाताप छ र हुनेछ सधै नै ।

मलाइ थाहा छ , म तिम्रो पहिलो प्रेम जुन तिम्रो अन्तिम सास सम्म याद हुनेछु । सुनेको छु मान्छे आफ्नो पहिलो अनुभव चाहेर पनि बिर्सिदैनन रे । तर तिम्लाइ मेरो याद ले पिर्ने भो नि है । तिम्ले आफ्ना नाति नातिना काख मा खेलाउदै गर्दा समेत तिमिलाइ एउटा नाम सधै याद हुनेछ " कृता" ।

तर यार बहुत नराम्रो लाग्छ जब देख्छु तिमी आफ्नो सकारत्मकता गुमाइ राखेको छौ । तिमिमा मान्छेलाइ हेर्ने नजर नै एक्दम आश्चर्यजनक छ । आशा छ , म गलत साबित हुँ अनि तिमिलाइ सदैव अगाडि बढेको देखि जलन महशुस गर्न पाउँ ।

चिन्ता नगर , तिमी मेरो पहिलो प्रेम नभए पनि । अधुरो सपना जरुर हौ । जुन म कदापी भुल्ने छैन । तिम्रा लागि निशब्द म , शब्द सदैव कोर्ने छु ।

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केही सम्बन्ध अचानक टुटे , केही अझै बाकी थिए

केही लाई छोड्न बाध्य भएं , केहि आफै भागी दिए ।

केहिले पाठ सिकाए जीवन को , केहिले त परीक्षा नै लिए

बुझ्दै जादा थाहा पाएं , जस्ले जे गरे ठिकै गरे ।

आफ्नो भन्नू त येहि आफ्नो देह न हो , अरु सबै सांसारिक थिए ,

तै पनि बदल्दै थिएं अरुको खातिर , अरुकै लागि समर्पित थिएं ।

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Uhh! It's been a while since I was so worried about the things I decided to change . The days that passed by reminded me of how stupid i was to be hung up with those spared moments . But now everything seems magical . The pain of the rudeness , the bitterness of the toxicity is gone .How dumb i was to believe that someone would do extraordinary for me 😂😂, Another funny thing is i was so scared of their sacrifice (*for the sake of comradeship) ,wtf.🙄 I realized that sometimes we are able to see the another side only by taking risk . The reality is so far unrealistic for these eyes to believe. Time is the tool to unravel the mystery .Whatever happens, happens for a reason (it could be a lesson or a guideline). Life is good , So the people are . Everyone has their own character which decides their destiny.

Love is beautiful when it's not caged, not forced. It becomes painful when you expect more than you put efforts on. Love is pure when it is unconditional, and love is perfect when you accept imperfections. You know you are in love when you can't fall asleep because it's hard to shut down your brain and not to think about the person who always messes up with your sleep :p . I laugh harder for no reason . I feel more attracted towards you. When something goes wrong or goes right ,or I hear something funny ,or I see something bizzare ,I want to share with you . I want to talk about it bcoz this is what we have been doing since we have become known to each other inside out. I wish I could be better me for you , the one whom you deserve 😔. During the day I keep myself busy and time passes by so easily. But at night , I really miss you . I wonder whether you do miss me or not . My heart says that you are missing me right now . I just want to say ' ❤❤❤I love you❤❤❤ ' .😊😊😊

Jay Shree Krishna ,
I am a talkative person. I talk all the time especially with all my close friends. I am always the first one who says something when there is an awkward moment in any case which I think is a good thing. But when I meet people for the very first time I don't talk as much which is my shyness but when the awkward moment of meeting someone new is over then I talk more. I am cautious, I am always observing my surroundings and looking for anything that can be dangerous or harmful. I have a personality trait of having thoughtfulness. I am always the one who opens the door for everyone and I do a lot of other things like that. Also whenever my mom needs help at her housework I always go without saying no because I know my mom's efforts can get difficulty if she doesn't have someone to help her. In a way it's also being kind, which I think I am. I am optimistic. I am just not a negative person even when I am upset or mad. Keeping an open mind about anything just makes you an overall happier person. I'm a protective and conservative person. I try to protect my loved ones from external constraints. I give my best to let them play freely and I keep my eyes on them. That's my way of caring for them.

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